Actually, don't mean that. I know he loved me but I'm just tired of life being so grim and hard. I miss my H's face. Still think it's better for me to be as detached and NC as possible though.
Treasure, as complicated and painful as some of these situations are, I've come to believe one piece of advice that applies to 90% of the situations here.
Which is to detach and go NC as best you can.
IF the time comes when your WAS wants back in, the reality is that WE would need such clarity and effort from them to know
that there'd be no hazy foggy shifting "mixed messages" b/c without clarity and intention from them,
why bother?
So I suggest the NC/Detachment plan until IF AND WHEN you have a reason to re-examine it.
Make sense?
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
