Treasur, you really are all over the place. It is understandable. I'm sure having him pop up and send these mixed signals and having the specter of meeting is hard. But, you have to press on and do you.
Really work on your detachment and give serious thought to what you control and what you don't. That has been helping me so much and propelling me forward. I like focusing on things I can control and letting go of the things I can't. It feels good.
