So the last few weeks have been a bit rough on me, at least in part due to my attitude. So yesterday I started a gratitude practice, which is helping.
So I would offer this restatement of your "sunk costs" problem:
Thanks to your experience with Dr. Alaska, you made a place here on the boards where you were able to bring calm and advice to people struggling. You've been encouraging and supportive to many, many total strangers. You've stepped in to be kind to people whose real life circles were letting them down. You brought hope to people who couldn't function without it, and encouraged them to move their visions of the future from their spouses to themselves when it was time to do that. Because of Dr. Alaska's cr@p choices, you've had the opportunity to be a force for good among a community of people who are sometimes treated as lepers, and who are often blamed for their misfortunes.
If life is meant to be lived with purpose, then perhaps yours was to be a compassionate presence to frightened and isolated people, to demonstrate what grace and strength combined look like, and to inspire those qualities in others.
Of course it would be pleasanter to have been able to be those things without having to eat the sh!t sandwich Dr. Alaska made up for you, but it's a lot harder to be genuinely compassionate, and to have authority in the 2x4s, when you haven't eaten one yourself.
So thank you for sharing your experiences with us so generously and try to see the bigger picture surrounding your life when you're tempted to beat yourself up a little bit.
Is the rain getting to you today?
Me42, H40 D12, S8, S7 A revealed: 7/13 Sep 4/14; Agreed to D 1/15