Seeing how well someone else's sitch is going just made me realize that my mistake was expecting some sort of respect from W. And also expecting her to carry herself like a W while still married. At least for the sake if S13. Should have completely backed off from the start. But I couldn't allow disrespect to take place according to people in this forum.
At this point, W and I probably do need to be seperated, because she wants to so whatever regardless who it hurts. And I can't live or be with someone like that. Perhaps I should take a page from her book and think about pleasing myself and stop giving a damn.
There is nothing more that I want than to keep my family together. But my W and SIL are plotting to take what steps necessary to ruin me, while they plan on running off into the sunset together. And SIL is apparent cool with my W doing whatever, because they have a parent/child relationship. That damn woman doesn't have a brain of her own. So she will cosign what W does no matter how ridiculous it seems. MIL is just shaking her head at this point at bs.
I am aware that I need to get past this. The plan was to sit back and allow W to get a lawyer and be the one to go through the process if that is what she wants. The problem here is that I find myself having to be the one to make decision just to survive. Having a chance to wait years for this to possibly blow over isn't looking like an option for me like I wanted. And clearly in doing so, I have to live like a monk. Doing that while W possibly allows whoever to run through as she becomes more comfortable with the sitch is not an option. S13 deserves to see his father in a better light than that.
Now I just have to find a way to pay for this divorce. Because unlike W, I can't in good conscious move on until legally apart. Whereas she clearly doesn't care about the MR blocking her aspects.
