Started to have a panic attack this morning, thinking about how I am going to be divorced soon, and how much I really miss W and want to work it out.

Texted some friends, and told them about some of the progress I have been making. The positive affirmation helped to calm me down a bit.

I soo do not want this. But I stopped telling W that. I am just doing me. Hoping she will have a change of heart.

Married 9: Together 11
M:37 W:35
S:2 D:7
Bomb dropped 6/3/2017
W moved out 7/1/2017
Separation Filed: 8/1/2017
Modified to Divorce: 8/21/2017
Divorced: 10/5/2017