Actually, don't mean that. I know he loved me but I'm just tired of life being so grim and hard. I miss my H's face.

Still think it's better for me to be as detached and NC as possible though.

Me: 53 H:38
T:20 M:14
BD ILYB etc 10/15, H diagnosed severe depression
S 1/16
PA 4/16
H filed 1/17