Decided that I just don't want to talk to him. Sent an email yesterday saying so, and suggesting we do it all by email instead. Asked him to confirm today that he'd read it and would send stuff over on Wednesday. So far, of course, echoing silence...

I think I just got to the point where I'm bored with being the only grown up, and bored with spending over a year asking/waiting for him to deal with the practical fallout of his own choices.

And if it isn't helpful to me to hear his voice, I don't have to.

My 50% of our M was real but I increasingly think I have to accept that he never loved me at all. If he had, after so long, he would have started to act in ways that were more respectful. Unless it's just being batchit crazy of course!! Hey ho

Me: 53 H:38
T:20 M:14
BD ILYB etc 10/15, H diagnosed severe depression
S 1/16
PA 4/16
H filed 1/17