KGirl - new life #3

[KGirl]

Trying to be positive/focus on good things and exciting things.

Good things: I ordered a new bike and it's coming sometime this week - I haven't ridden a bike really since high school and my city is very bike-friendly so I'm looking forward to exploring, as long as I don't fall off. I didn't realize how much gear you all need for bikes! Pumps, lights, and more. I've finally gotten into Game of Thrones and will now know what everyone's talking about once I get caught up (plus binge watching TV for better or for worse is a good distraction). I've been working on this "unf*** your habitat" concept for lazy/unmotivated people to clean and do chores - going by the 20/10 minute idea (20 minutes of cleaning, 10 minutes of break - don't try and marathon it!) I have some fun plans for labor day weekend including a Brewers game and a cookout at a friend's house.

Still struggling with feeling like someone was better than nothing (especially with the long weekend and cookouts and things coming up), even though I know logically that's no good. And breakups in general tend to open up old wounds of abandonment and all of the divorce/XH stuff. The XBF has gone completely off the grid, deactivated facebook (big deal for us millenials!), so I guess it's really not about me and he has his own crap to figure out. And all of this is making it hard to be motivated at work with some big projects and meetings I need to plan. It's easy when I just have appointment after appointment of student meetings because that's just conversation, but not so easy to brainstorm and think of big picture stuff. I give myself until the end of this week for pity-partying and then it's time to be done.