Not sure what else to do

[Jmstl]

I fully agree with Joseph here. That's the issue that cuts me up the most. My children don't deserve this.

I had to drop off kiddos at W's place so the in-laws can look after them during the day as I am working. Both kids were super emotional and didn't want me to go. It was killing me inside to see them like that but I put my game face on and gave them love and hugs and kisses and told them that I will be back to pick them up and we're going to spend the evening together.

It is the only thing that brings so much pain every day for me. I can handle whatever W throws at me, but to see the kids suffer through this transition is what is most difficult.

I know it will pass and kids are resilient, but they most certainly didn't have to be put through this. It is unfair on them.

It is unfair! I know that they will be okay because W and I can and are being good coparents. But TBH, they will never be what they 'could' be, had W decided to work it out, and they grew up in a loving 2 parent household.