Thank you for peeking in on me! That means a lot to me!
So, last night, Husband called me.
We had a nice chat on the phone. He said he missed me.
Today is his last day at work.
He said he was enjoying his time with his brother and wanted to stay longer.
I stayed upbeat. I didn't tell him he couldn't. He has committed to looking after our cats and my parents dogs, next week, from Thursday through Sunday.
Instead, I said, "That's fine if that's what you want to do, my Mom has found someone to look after her dogs while we are gone."
My mom, dad, and I are flying out to see my brother graduate with his Masters. I've had this trip on our calendar for Husband. We talked about it just a week ago. He's known for a long time that I was going on this trip. And he volunteered to look after my parents dogs and our cats.
I then said, "I don't know who would look after our cats though."
He had completely forgotten that we were leaving for this trip.
He asked what day we were leaving. Thursday.
He said he'd be back on Tuesday after all.
He told me he wanted to come see me this weekend.
And we ended the phone call with some sweet 'I love yous'.
So, I feel good about that conversation.
My feelings were hurt that he hasn't seen me for two weeks, and that he wants to stay longer cause he's having fun.
I'm trying so hard to not take that personally. He has said that he misses me.
I know that I handled it well, but now the next morning, I still feel sad, lonely, and abandoned.
And to top that off, I received an email from his mother to me and a whole bunch of other folks.
And there's a little blurb in there about husband and his little brother playing video games and working on her house all weekend.
Either she doesnt' know that they are coming to see me on the weekend, or he decided not to come and just hasn't told me yet.
I know that it is my choice on whether or not I choose to act on my feelings...or not.
I am in control. My feelings are just feedback.
I don't have to act on them.
Positives:
1> Husband called me early! He'd been calling me every day after I'd gone to bed, so I haven't had much interaction with him at all. But this time he called before my bedtime!
2> He told me he missed me.
3> He said he was happy to hear the sound of my voice.
let me tell you something i am proud of today. it seems that the dreaded pms monster was rearing it's ugly head in my life last night, and when i woke this morning, i did NOT feel like doing my walk
i said to myself - kitti, get that stupid thought out of your mind, get up and take a shower then go walking...
while i was taking a shower, the pms monster was giving me all kinds of justifications NOT to go walking, but i slapped that monster silly, and as soon as i was done i headed out that door
i actually clocked in distance today how much i am walking when i was in the car - it's a whole mile in 15 minutes!!!
I'm a walker from way back..started when I was 30 and have been walking ever since. Was sick of dieting and thought I'm just going to start walking and eat what I want! I walked three miles six times a a week. Now I hit my treadmill three or four times a week.
Whenever, I didn't want to walk, whenever I was making excuses in my head I just said "do it" don't think about it, just do it...yeah the hold Nike saying. If you can don't think about it, just "do it!" What also kept me going was how I felt afterwards, on those days when I didn't feel like walking, I'd think of how I felt afterwards.
Walking is the only constant in MY life, it's always there for me, it's the one thing that doesn't change in my life.
So gals, as the saying goes...Just Do It!
Cathy
P.S. or P.M.S--walking is great for that, especially the tension, nothing like beating the pavement!!
