Great evening. Spent time shopping with the kids. maintained a positive attitude all day. Really looking forward to kickboxing tomorrow. Started talking to someone on Bumble tonight. Not that either of us expect anything serious. But it was nice to know that we matched, and someone else finds me attractive. My ego has been boosted slightly.
Still miss the W. Wish I could fully detach. Wish she would 'come home'. Two steps forward and one step back. I am dreading our divorce hearing. I think the W is trying to erase me to cover her pain and guilt. No idea if true, and trying not to dwell on it. I can't control her, only me. Looking forward to Kickboxing, and making some new friends. I really need to expand my social circle.
Bought a chromebook and started writing again. Got 5 more pages of the book done. But the book is about us and our family. What do I do? Do I include all the crap going on? Or should I end the book on a high note?
Goodnight DB diary
Married 9: Together 11 M:37 W:35 S:2 D:7 Bomb dropped 6/3/2017 W moved out 7/1/2017 Separation Filed: 8/1/2017 Modified to Divorce: 8/21/2017 Divorced: 10/5/2017
