Also, the 180s I need to do for myself (and W of course) which partly comes into play here is:
- Be more assertive and sure of myself. When I got ill, I started to become really anxious and could not control it. I have always been partly anxious, but always kept it well under control and acted "as if" which really paid out for me until I crashed. - Stop being a "know-it-all" and correct other ppl. I have a tendency to do it without really thinking about it, which I hate doing. - Be more generous and less cheap/frugal. Have always been a bit frugal but when I crashed and became highly anxious, this part of me started to take over. - Be more casual and social. I am an introvert but "learned to act as an extrovert" early. Only the ppl really close to me would describe me as an introvert. Aquintances would say I am quite extrovert. But the introvert personality traits took over more when I crashed. - Excercise body and mind daily. - Make sure that family always comes first. When I got ill, I had a hard time focus on anything outside of myself. Right now this is D, but would love for W to want to be included as well (as if that would happen...).
I am trying to be critical of myself in order to really see negative personality traits for what they really are. But also trying to be forgiving, which is hard...
H-30s W-30s M-5 T-10 D4 ILYBNILWY/BD-May/17 W moves out-May/17 D filed-May/17 House sold, move to apartment-Aug/17 D going through-Jan/18?