So i need to make some changes to my life. It is a Saturday night, and I have no plans. Next week, I am going to put out an Online Dating profile. This way I will have something to look forward to, a reason to dress up and go out. I have to just do.
I sent out my resume last week for a second job. I got an immediate call back and went on an interview and was offered the job. It seems like a nice place to work, but i realized this weekend that I need a second job with more flexibility so I could accommodate my son's schedule better. I think I did well at this interview, because I have another job already. I do not need this job. And I have other options.
I have a lot of good things in my life 1. I have been offered jobs without trying. When I do send out my resume, I am pretty confident that I will get hired. I have great references, do well at my field, and have built up a nice back ground.
2. My son is doing great. I have taken him to some more specialists who completely disagree with the autism diagnosis. They all agree its adhd. Regardless, of the diagnosis as I posted above, son and I have a great relationship. And while he is challenging, he is just a great kid. Extremely bright in every single area, and funny, and energetic. He just gets into a lot of trouble. But not in that mean kid sort of way.
3. I have a really great family and I don't have to worry about struggling. I have choices because of this.
4. I think that once I put out my dating profile, I will do ok. Just like with the jobs. I will have choices. And that's because I do not really feel like I am desperate. Quite frankly, I could take or leave having a relationship. I am not dying for one right now, as I have not had great experiences with them. And i know that actually makes me more desirable to others. I am getting curious though and have been thinking up my profile.
I think I actually have a lot going for me, its just that I am my own worst enemy. I get bogged down with the obsessing and catastrophising, and I am missing out on life by continuing to do so!
