He's gone for good isn't he?

[Kylo]

He may very well be a great guy to everyone else but you. My W is the same way. she used to bring it up in arguments all the time: "My friends think I'm great!" that doesn't really do us any good, does it? If anything it makes a stark contrast with the way they treat us.

As for worrying about your sitch, I think the best thing is to GAL and learn more about MLC. It helps me immensely knowing why it happened. Knowing they will blame it all on you, etc. It helps.