There will come a time with no more tears

[Treasur]

New thoughts today. Feeling much better. I might have tripped over my sassy mojo by accident! (Also been inspired by a lady poster called Kalni who is adorable and strong and a jewel of a woman)

Layers of done. I feel I've been on a road from numb horror to helplessness to grudging acceptance to letting go to...I deserve better.

I want a man who knows I'm a treasure worth fighting for with passion, who is strong enough to not break in tough times and brave enough to be honest and own his own s**t I want to be happy again living a life that feels like me. And I won't settle for less on either count.

I thought this was my H. In reality, he was probably 70% of that for a very long time. Now he is not even within spitting distance of that kind of man, barely 1%. Mr 70% who was lovely (but 80% would always have been better!) is dead.

That description is the only kind of man I deserve in my life because I am extraordinary, always have been a rare treasure. Still am, maybe even more forged by the storms!

I don't feel like talking to him on Weds about financial stuff. I will because it is a necessary task, but I no longer want to hear his voice or care about what he thinks. He is Mr 1% man now at best. But I'm tired of being the only grown up and tired of being the only person who has even tried to deal with practical stuff. So, I'll hear him out on Weds but if he does his normal thing of trying to make me do the work to tidy up his mess, I really can't be bothered.