Journey to Acceptance

[Coly23]

Hey Sotto, thanks for the visit. I agree that the interactions with H are positive and he seems to want to engage but you are also right in that they are very unsettling.

I feel like I have taken about 10 steps back this week! It's been rough and I'm afraid I'm not coping very well. When we made the decision to get married two days before my birthday little did I know that it would make it the worst three days of August! And then to top it off the stress of D getting her exam results the day after my birthday just sent me over the edge. I'm an emotional wreck at the moment!

I also feel like his feelings towards me have become even more indifferent. Last year I got a birthday card from H and also his parents. This year I got nothing. What does that mean? His interactions by text don't match up with his actions and I really don't understand. Am I missing something here? Is he just faking being nice to me over text but really he just can't stand me? I'm just so confused!

I've got a party with my family today and I nearly cancelled it yesterday because all I want to do is curl up in a ball and shut everything out. I was doing so well but I'm just crumbling now...