Well, haven't been here for a while, but noticed 'Ghost'had popped in to say hello. Well hello fella, hope you're doing OK.
I've had one of those bad weeks. Obviously something set this off - well, actually, my wedding anniversary. Yep, should have been 17 happy years, but it's not gone to plan.
The summer has come and gone. I took the kids away for holidays and the like, and W has had her second boob operation. I know that one of my sister in laws came up to look after her. She came over from Dubai of all places!
I have been doing alright, but the trigger of the anniversary certainly made me feel low. I haven't ben coming here because it's just too sad to see newbies popping up so often. What's going on in the world hey?
I was off the day of my anniversary, which I needed for a work event that I was taking part in over the last weekend. Again, there was a social event on the Saturday evening, but I haven't felt right all week.
W has dropped the kids of today and seems so cheerful - really happy, as if there wasn't a care in the world. Does she miss me? Unlikely on the evidence so far. The kids do, and I miss them so much. I felt really down on Thursday and had really dark thoughts.
I have got myself booked in to events and work is built up to such an extent that, with the kids, I haven't got a free weekend between now and Christmas. Indeed, I have booked to go away for a weekend in October.
Just when I thought I was doing so well, the anniversary has knocked the stuffing out of me a bit. I think it will take time for me to get back up again. Anyways, throwing myself in to work and quite a few social activities between now and Christmas, hoping that being busy will knock me back in to shape. Have began to comfort eat in the last month - more gym me thinks!
Bye for now
M 45 W 52 SD22 S9 D8 BD 6 April 2015 Not living together 4 Dec 2015
