I empathize with this. I also am used to being able to change things/try harder/take action/etc. to get things to be how I want them to be or to be successful (miss type A valedictorian/4.0 college student/always president of everything over here) and this is the one area where it's literally outside my control because the outcome has to depend on someone else. Sometimes I want to go on "love at first sight", the show where a psychologist picks a match for you and then you marry them sight unseen. At least I know they're in it despite having no idea what they're getting into I miss those "being in a relationship" times too and just having someone to watch TV with or tell about your day or get a text from. Keep us informed on what works to get that PMA back
Me:30 H:29, no kids T:12, M:4 (when D was final) 12/13: "Don't think I want to be M anymore" 6/14: Separated (I move) 1/15: H filed for D 5/15: D final
I miss those "being in a relationship" times too and just having someone to watch TV with or tell about your day or get a text from. Keep us informed on what works to get that PMA back 
