Journey to Acceptance

[Coly23]

I am really looking forward to it Ownit! I also just wear tinted moisturiser but sometimes it would be nice to wear something different in the evening and I have no clue about eyeshadow!

Journaling: I feel like H is playing mind games with me, ugh! I responded this morning to his text from last night and just said I had a good day. He came back immediately and said that was good and again said about D being nervous about her exam results but I didn't respond that time. I didn't think he was asking me a question just stating a fact. Then he kept chasing D to find out how she did (she did okay by the way!) and eventually she let him know. Then randomly he texted me "Are you a proud mummy!! Xx" - WTF! What a strange thing to ask! This is the man who couldn't even send me a birthday card. Anyway I mulled it over for a few hours and responded that yes off course I was proud and that I was taking D out to dinner to celebrate. Again he responded immediately and said that was fantastic and that she deserved it. So again I left it and did not respond back. Then about half an hour later I get another text from him asking how my niece did in her exams. So I didn't respond until after dinner when I said she did okay too. Again he immediately responded that he was glad she did well and he hoped we had a nice dinner!

I don't get it. He acts as if everything is okay between us and we can just have a nice chat. He acts like we didn't just have our seventh wedding anniversary which he ignored! This is the most he has voluntarily texted me since Christmas. I really wanted to ask him if he is now going to go back to acting like I don't exist because I guess that is what he will do now. He has got the information he needs from me. I served a purpose. This just takes me back to square one because I am crying again. I just want him to disappear forever so I don't have to deal with him anymore. This just $ucks!