Finding my way out of the dark - Part 3

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Thanks, LH19!

Your wife will eventually start to see the consequences of her actions.

Thanks, but I try not to think about that. The thought of her seeing the consequences isn't as satisfying as it used to be. And when I do think about it, I realize it ignites that small flame of hope - maybe the realization will make her doubt herself and want to change course. But it's honestly too painful for me right now to feed that hope.

So I took S10 to the IC last night. He actually didn't want to go, and I had to talk him into it. I'm glad I brought him though. The IC is good, and she let him play with blocks while they talked. He started to open up a little, and now he actually wants to go back. She says he's still in denial, which is normal. On the ride home he told me I still need to love his mommy because we aren't divorced yet, and a "miracle" might happen. Then he said we need to win the lottery so we don't have to sell the house. (Internal rage intensifies...)

W will probably be back home tomorrow unless this hurricane thing in the Gulf of Mexico gets in the way. I don't think I've ever wished for a hurricane before