you have said repeatedly that you "get" what we are saying BUT...and then your next clause undermines the first.
I think you get acting as if, which is a big thing.
imo, you are choosing to allow your w and OM into your home with your children - at your expense.
I'm no expert but I'm familiar enough with GB's laws to know that ^^^ is not a mandatory situation.
Maybe you are afraid to assert yourself b/c you associate that (& boundaries) with being a jerk.
Have you discussed this unusual arrangement with a lawyer? (Not the custody, the living arrangement)...
And do you understand that while we would love to see you and your w reconcile, most of us believe you are more likely to reconcile, by letting her go?
Letting her go is not = giving up.
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016