There will come a time with no more tears

[Treasur]

Had a funny dream last night about my H coming back and sitting on the beach with me trying to talk. Even in my dream, it felt impossibly hard to even start clearing up the mess! We held hands and both cried. What was nice about the dream is that I 'felt' him again and our connection...that was lovely.

But I woke up knowing that it was a comforting dream and never going to happen, that it is impossible to come back from the 'horrible mess' (as he calls it) that he's made for us both. The universe feels off-kilter to me without him beside me, still does, but it is as it is and there is nothing to be done about it but focus on my life without him. And no tears after my dream which was good! It was a strangely soothing dream actually. Odd.