I am so sorry about the divorce, as you have nicely put it...you have saved yourself and now, it's time to turn the page of your Life's Book and start a new chapter.
Please take care of yourself and stay in touch. The door is always open and your "DB" family is always here to welcome you.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.