I would like to thank you all for your help, advice and kind words over the last two years and a half. It is time for me to move on. My divorce got pronounced 3 days ago and two days before my wedding anniversary, so I see it as a sign from God as closure. I have also learnt that when ex was away playing his sport he had a tendency of bringing back a girl to his hotel and after bragged about it to his mates.
I was sad and cried when I got the divorce paper and there was still a tiny weeny part of me that was hoping that ex would realise what he had let go. I also asked God for a way or sign to let me drop the last bit of rope that I had as I was fed up of being in pain. My wish got granted with the new information given today.
I now realise that I indeed had a lucky escape and that I could have lead a life of misery. I'm better now than I have ever been. Still got triggers but they will fade away with time. I came here to save my marriage and in the light of the new information I'm glad I didn't.
The only thing (if i can use this word) I have saved is me. I'm happier now, less stress and seeing life in such a more positive way than I could have ever imagined. So much better that I don't want to go back to who I was.
This is not a farewell as such but I'm looking in the front mirror not the back one. Shotgun I will really miss you (you have always had a special place in my heart and always will), I wish you well and I'm sure the next Mrs Shotgun will realise what a catch you are.
