Thanks all for the vote of confidence, really do appreciate that! I actually had a beer with the mom the other night, talked about a bunch of stuff, mostly about our situation's as she is in the same boat as all of us here. I'm fairly confident this could have escalated into something more if I would let it but.... don't think I am emotionally ready for anything other than talking. Later that night while lying in bed we continued messaging, more flirting but mostly harmless, when we ended the conversation I felt bad, almost like I was doing something wrong. Apparently I have a conscious, guess this will take some time to build the emotional strength to move on with another woman. Back to GAL!! My kids, have I said how much I love my children! They are my strength, my comfort, a shoulder to lean on when I'm down. They are hurting on the inside that my WW doesn't see, I have learned that my S17 who has anger issues dating back a long time has now started drinking! The other day when I woke up I noticed that a new 1/5 of whiskey was almost gone, my WW thought I drank it, I thought she drank it and then my S17 said he did???? WTF! So now my kid is turning to the bottle because of what my wife has done!! Yes I blame her! For all her supportive friends telling her the kids will be fine, they're resilient, I want to punch everyone in the face! My kids are hurting and need my wife and I more than ever, she's not there, so this is all on me! I will not fail!
