Its been hard but over the past week, I've really been able to work on thawing out my heart and working to get myself back in the game and I have done so with some success. We had MC today and it went well. My W got a chance to talk about how it affected her to have me so emotionally detached. I see and validated that she was working hard over the Summer to not give up on me. She was patient while I worked through my $hit.
W has finally gotten over my need to occasionally look through her phone. She just asked that I not do it on the down low and instead ask her and be willing to immediately discuss anything I find that may be objectionable. So I did that yesterday and saw something I wasn't happy about. There is a recently divorced athlete that has sent my W some very inappropriate messages over the past few months. This guy is probably 20+ years older than my W so its not anything I'm really worried about. Instead of getting upset about it, I told her that it would have been better if she had told me about it so that we could have made a decision together about what to do instead of just ignoring his inappropriate comments.
So anyways, I'm back in the saddle and I'm glad. I don't want my M to be over and I DO want to have us come out the other side better than we were before. Thanks for all the support. The feedback I got recently was incredibly helpful in helping me get over the hump.
Me: 48 y/o W: 47 y/o Together: > 20 yrs BD: Dec '15, then S 2nd BD: Mar '16, then I filed for D April '16: started piecing
