Divorce and Acceptance- Part 2

[Treasur]

I kind of get that, paxluv. Whatever combo of things are going on in my ditch/my H's head, I have not been able to find another way. So, maybe this is the only way to...whatever comes next. Maybe it's almost an act of faith.

I have no idea what my H feels about me, if anything. As far as I can see, he wants the D, wants to 'talk' after it and is planning to remarry OW who he spends weekends with. (He shouldn't because he is still far from healthy, but nothing I can do about it.)

The thing is for me, the love is the same. Loving him is simple; it just is. It was from the moment I realised I did in 1997. And I'm a very logical woman (usually) so it was a scary feeling. The love is simple. Everything else is impossibly complicated. So, I imagine that I will just have to live with loving someone who is no longer in my life, just like I still love my father who died. It's a strange place to be, isn't it?