There will come a time with no more tears

[Treasur]

I think it's like any other big life experience. I had no idea what bereavement was like, for instance, until I watched my father die. Now, I understand the unspoken things if I'm with someone else who is bereaved.

People mostly mean well but it can be hard to soak up others' emotions and opinions too, can't it? I'm really confident that neither of us are loons but this MLC stuff is right out there. Never imagined I'd deal with some of things I have. I understand some of our friends who loved my H were as shocked as me and then took their own road from support to confusion and anger. They are too angry to see the reality as anything other than excuses for H's appalling behaviour towards everyone. He cut them dead too, and many tried to stay in touch with him for over a year. Some of my friends are angry because they have seen my pain close-up when my H didn't because he ran away, and they understandably want me to do the whole Gloria Gaynor routine. The few friends, and acquaintances, that I have found 'get it' are ones who have had mental health or addiction issues in their families. They get the freaky sick WTF thing!

Don't know how all this has changed me yet, or what's good, bad or neutral about it. I guess I'll see. I do know I've experienced emotions and thoughts in the last two years I've never had before, and some I'll be happy to never have again!

Part of me wants to cancel and curl up with the cat, but I won't.