Get over your hill and see what you find there

[Treasur]

The irony (does God have a weird SOH do you think?) is that 20 long months after this nightmare started, my STBXH got to the point where he began to be capable of talking.

And now 22 months after it all began, now that he can talk like a rational person and wants to talk, all there is left in the rubble of our life to talk about is money, possessions and the last bit of paper in our divorce. Because he spent 20 months destroying everything.

And divorce is still his only option. It feels so unfair that he couldn't talk when he had his breakdown and give us a chance to try. And now he can talk, he doesn't want to give us a chance to try. I feel suckered by a really s**t Catch 22.

I suppose God would say that, because he does the whole God thing, he knows stuff I don't. That maybe he is getting rid of someone who is still unwell and not capable of loving me properly. Or maybe he's saving me from further pain and damage. But he obviously things this is the best route...I just wish I could get a preview of the next chapter because this one has broken my heart.