Still here. Still not detached...

[Chris73]

Thanks Guys.

I woke up this morning pretty psyched to be going away. I'm totally confident that I can manage the kids alone and I have equal amounts of coffee and alcohol to help. My parents are visiting for an overnight in the middle of the week, so that will help too. Not sure how much "quiet time" I'll get before I fall asleep myself, but I picked up a copy of a popular paleo/primal book that I plan to read in prep for turning my diet around when we get back. And there's always the extensive research I need to do to prepare for my fantasy football draft at the end of the month!

Starting to see some genuine remorse coming from my W. I notice she tears up more often during our discussions. We talked this morning about whether or not she wanted to be at our house tomorrow morning to see the kids off. She asked if D5 knew that she wasn't coming with us to the beach. I said yes, and she started to tear up. I think she'll probably say goodbye to them tonight before bed and then leave after they're asleep. She claims that this may avoid D5 having a difficult goodbye tomorrow morning, which is true. But I think it's for her too. I don't think she's ready to stand in the driveway and watch us drive away and not come back for a week.

She's taken the kids away for a few extended vacations without me but this is the first time the roles are reversed. It was all I could do to keep from saying, "You know you can still come if you want to." She would have said no anyway, but I'm starting to realize that trying to appease her only helps to prevent her from living with the reality of her decisions.