New to the journey and thank you.

[Kylo]

Pretty much the only time we talk, is when it is about the kids, and during these talks she seems normal. It's like she can't hate me when the kids are involved.

Before BD, we may not have gotten along very well, but when the kids were involved we had fun. It was an uplifting experience for me. an experience that felt right and good.

Yesterday was the first day of school, so in the excitement and discussion about the kids it is like she forgot to hate me. Later I went to talk to her about the end of her car lease and she was back to being short with me and trying to end the convo. It's amazing to observe.

I feel like I've been able to purge my resentment about the cake-eating aspect of all this and get back on track.

I also realized today it had been a long time since she seemed to enjoy anything about me, a looooong time. Once she roped me in and got over the initial infatuation, she had to start on the devaluation. I don't think she really has it in her to be mean, so she just withheld all compliments and praise.

I'm hoping to do something tomorrow night, I just don't know what. My good friends are always unable to do anything. I suppose I'll work on that.