Last night I had a dream which basically opened my eyes a little about my situation, I was with my WW somewhere with my family and the atmosphere was not exactly friendly but not isolated between us either. I had no indication that the A had finished or that R was on the cards, as time went on I saw WW upset about something and as a typical MNG I went to see if I could comfort her.
She had in her hand a photo of one of our boys with an incredible hulk mask on (his favourite thing in the past) which I assumed and “felt” upset her possibly bringing her to her senses a little. The conversation then went the direction of me trying to reconcile our MR with talk of the past and how we could R, I woke up from this dream suddenly at the point where she looked into my eyes and said “I’m sorry Mark I won’t be leaving AP/LO” and that I was wasting my time trying to force the issue.
Actually this was a major wake-up call for me and allowed me to feel what it would be like to approach my WW too soon or to push for R quicker if at all.
This really did hit me hard and I hope will serve me well going into the future.
Like I said a weird post but useful…
Mark.
DR'ing started March 2017
Don't blow the last bridge up from fantasy island, act "as if".
