Wife says that she had enough, files for divorce

[SwHubby]

Update:

Last week of this year's summer vacation. In a way, it feels good that it is coming to an end since I will have work to distract me then.

W continues to take everything I say or do as a direct insult towards her. I know that this is to be expected and has written about it before, but it is so hard to experience. She is really working hard to find flaws in me and our relationship and if she cannot find any at the moment, she's perfectly happy to fabricate them. But I know this is probably a subconcious process, to make sure she's on the right track.

Had a great afternoon with D. She got to visit my new apartment that she loved. She also got so excited about me having a bathtub (of all things) that she wanted to try it instantly. :-) We also tried the local playgrounds and ate tacos on the balcony. It has started to get really painful since she has a hard time saying goodbye to me when we have to part. Crying followed by lots of hugs and kisses. W isn't commenting this at all to me (in her head me and D doesn't have a relationship at all, as she told me a week ago) but she isn't trying to intervene in our goodbyes either.

This evening I have been sittning on the balcony with a cigar and beer, planing a treasure hunt for her tomorrow. Will burrow a couple of golden chocolate coins around the nearest playground and draw a map for her to follow.


What do I want for the future? I do not really know. I would like to say that I wouldn't want her back without some serious soulsearching in IC on her behalf. But knowing myself, I would probably jump out of joy and take ger back directly if she suggested something like that.

I do know that I need to work on myself. Improve my health, parenting skills and building a kickass relation with D. Also meet new ppl and expand my network. Most of my friends and family are located in other parts of the country so I need more local friends.