New to the journey and thank you.

[Kylo]

New question/observation: I don't think I miss her. I think I don't like the rejection. She does not talk to me. She does not look at me. It really is amazing. Of all the places we/she could have used some discipline, this is where it shows up.

Earlier I kept thinking: "I just want her to be nice to me", and when she was I was happy. Right before the BD, unbeknownst to me, she tried really hard to be nice and happy as a way to feel better. For those two weeks I was on top of the world. I felt like my life was perfect.

I'm sure this says something about my issues. Maybe I'm at the point where I should pass the time with a counselor.