Finding my way out of the dark - Part 3

[Holding]

Thinking about the past and the future today.

First came thoughts of the future - what my life will be like post-D, and especially wondering what kind of interactions I'll have with W. I'm not looking forward to dealing with her nastiness, snide comments, and the possibility that I'll have to see her at functions for my kids. How will I feel about her being with someone else, actually seeing them together?

Then I started thinking about the past, and stupidly looked for old pics of W on my phone. She looks different in those old pics, and I think it's more than just the weight difference. She seems more at ease and approachable. I miss that familiarity.

I met up with a friend last night who's been supporting me through my sitch. He told me that, with the "what if" scenarios my W's been bringing up lately, it almost sounds like she is having second thoughts at this point. I'm not gonna lie, it has made me think about the possibility.

Not sure why I'm letting my brain torture me like this today.