Get over your hill and see what you find there

[leahsue]

Hey sweet Treasur,
I hope today is a better day for you. It hurts to see you hurt like that, although it feels like a second skin (that thank goodness we DO eventually shed!)

My awful days were in the darkest days of January, which seems to be a hard month anyway. There were days I DID just crawl under the covers and cry. But being the women that we are, we can only do that for so long before even WE become sick of ourselves. The only thing to do is let those feelings come when you must, ride the waves of them, then walk out of the surf and get on the "sturdy quicksand"! Which is a joke.

YOU ARE ENOUGH. Repeat. I AM ENOUGH. You really are. Take a second and look around for someone who may need your smile today. Every single person we meet on the street, in the market, etc. is fighting a battle that we know nothing about. One of the things that helped me the most was signing up to drive for a program that delivers hot meals to elderly people. The work was easy for me, and I found that just getting out of the house on a regular basis (AND NO, I DID NOT feel like doing it- but once I signed up, I knew I had to go, so I did) was a help, but oh my, going into those homes each day around noon, some of the recipients not even able to walk to the door, but rather had to call from inside the house to come on in, some coming across to open the door in a slow, painstaking way in their own wheelchair, some creeping along on a walker, but the gratitude in their faces when they saw another human at the door..... it absolutely changed my mood and attitude every single time. And the crazy thing, almost every single one of the them wanted to give me a hug, and say GOD BLESS YOU FOR HELPING ME. You may not have access to a program like that right where you are, but you are a smart woman with so much love to give. A husband is not the only channel you can pour that love into. There are hurting people literally everywhere. You just have to be creative with how to find them! I know you know all this-no new information here. But sometimes we just need a little nudge to remind us that we have things to offer, that people around us are starving to receive. Now get out there and love some people! Just today. Don't worry about tomorrow until it gets here. Just do it one day at a time. It will carry you all the way home, like headlights on a car at night. You can only see a short distance, but each short distance brings you closer to home.