If it weren't for you, I would have fallen back on my codependance and I'd probably be in a long distance relationship with W right now haha!
I'm trying to just ride my feelings out like a wave and hopefully stay on my surfboard.
Hey NY - thanks for checking in! I have not shared any of my fears with W. All of my interactions with her, always by text, are superficial and surface. I don't let her into my world and tell her what I'm thinking or feeling. She on the other hand appears to be struggling with her decision to up and move. The old Thornton would have sacrificed himself to make her feel better. I can't do that any more. I'm trying to make me #1 for once in my life. My relationship with her was more important than my relationship with me.
Honestly I'm just flying blind right now. Because I am literally choosing to go against my very strong instincts to fix things with W.
But from experience, if neither one of us has actually changed, we would just end up where we are right now. Just a matter of when.
I'm hoping that by leaning into my pain, that I will come out the other side. And I'm hoping when that happens, I'll have a much better people picker.
