Divorce and Acceptance- Part 2

[Pax_luv]

Hey HaWho and Pinn. As always, thanks for the support.

It's not my intention to really focus on his terrible flaws. It's more or less reinforcement and giving me permission to move on as I have been. I guess its justification and rationalization on my end. Much like the justification the Mlcer did when they blew up their lives and ours.

I've been following along and I know on a couple other threads there has been substantial discussion on forgiveness and also holding on to "hope" that the ww, waw/h, mlcer "suffer" to some degree.

Yep... That is definitely something I struggle with a bit. I'm still dealing with the repercussion of h's actions and yet he seemingly gets to move on unscathed and it feels unjust. Now, let's be real... This is all part of the stuff I'm trying to work through, but it sure is HARD.

My ex sis and bro in law are in town and like my ex, they haven't poked their heads out. I did see my ex bro in law in a car as they were pulling into the driveway and he did not make eye contact at all. argggg- my ego wants to scream out and paint a different side to the story. But I won't go there.... They're allowed to think what they want about me. I get to live my truth.

As I was leaving my old home after dropping off the dog, I got genuinely angry. There's a part of me that wants to say, "are you all crazy thinking I'm this greedy gold digger after begging ex to be with me. He's playing the victim and you all buy into this vision.... And yet you can't even see how f'd up this all is?!? Can't youbut the pieces together!?" My ex sister in law cashed checks worth thousands and thousands of dollars that my ex wrote (in my name) from my personal account without my permission or knowledge after he filed divorce.... Really?!?! She's part of the fraud too!!!! And yet, I'm the evil one.

Uch. Crazy making.

Whatever. Karma karma karma, right? The truth comes out eventually. I just have to keep on my path. Stay the course, right?