Tread, you're angry and that's understandable. As I understand sandi2's comments - sandi2 help? - it's about life giving her losses rather than punishment.
You can't control what your W is doing. But she is also always going to be the mother of your son.
What are your goals now Tread? Why did you come to DB? How will this help in the longer-term?
Me: 53 H:38 T:20 M:14 BD ILYB etc 10/15, H diagnosed severe depression S 1/16 PA 4/16 H filed 1/17