Leah, part 4

[leahsue]

Wow, now here's an update.

After seeing H last Monday, as you all know, my heart took off on another of those famous rollercoaster rides.

He has gone back to texting every other day or so, kind of abrupt, like- "hope your week went well", which he texted Friday night at 11:20 PM.
WTF?

I was awake, so I texted back, not so great, I'm sick, but thanks for asking. (My neighbor keeps her 6 month old grandaughter, and she called me Friday morning in a panic and said she felt like she was going to faint, could I please come over and take the baby- so I did. We all thought it was food poisoning, but then later Friday, baby and I both came down with it- so now we think 24 hr stomach yucky thing.) Anyway, Saturday, he texted about 2 in afternoon and said just thought I would reach out and see if you're feeling better. I said "YES, so much better. And I took your advice, and I have a date tonight!" (He had said when he was here last week that I should date- I said, why? so it will make you feel like we are even?- and we kind of laughed about it.) WELL, my friends, his reaction stunned me!

He said "I AM SO JEALOUS I CAN'T STAND IT."

Then "Well, you go on your date and have fun and maybe I will see you sometime in the future."

LOL. It sounded like something I would have said to him back in January, coming from a place of huge hurt. I guess that's why I recognized it as that.

I texted back and said- well you sound pi$$ed, but I'm only doing exactly what you said you've done, and that I should do, which is moving on. You've always been my person, H, but you have replaced me with OW (and I called her by name), so it's time for me to move forward too.

There was more, but I can't remember it all, anyway, we went back and forth a bit, with him saying I don't know what you mean, etc.
Whatever.
I said ummmmmm..... OW, age 48, lives in NYC, etc. If you're in love with her, that's one thing, but if you are mixed up in something that is dangerous (more to that story from some things I've seen in his phone records that leads me to think he is in over his head, and that she may be a part of it- maybe some not so legal kinds of stuff), then just be very careful. I'd hate to see things go bad for you, even as we move toward this divorce.

This is what he texted back- "I AM IN LOVE WITH YOU, NOT OW, BUT I GUESS YOU ARE JUST NOT GOING TO SEE IT."

Again, WTF?

I realized he must be either drinking, or otherwise impaired, so I moved to end the conversation, since I was about to leave on my "date". I just said, you take care of yourself, and no hard feelings, right? Our splitting up was your choice, not mine, remember? Talk to you later.

He texted back this big OK emoji, then a line full of hearts, and then he CALLED MY PHONE. I didn't answer, then he texted "Sorry."

Then he texted, "Have fun on your date, and hopefully I will talk to you soon. Emoji wink."

THEN HE CALLED MY PHONE AGAIN. (I do think that one was by accident though. No one would be that stupid.) So of course, then he texts AGAIN and said "I am so sorry. I promise I did not mean to call you."

I did not respond to any of that last things. Then yesterday he called, and I was at the home place farm with awful service, so when I didn't answer, then he texted and said "I hate to bother you, but just wanted to make sure it was you that withdrew $100 from the account- not a problem if you did, just making sure it was you since you don't normally do that." That really didn't make sense, and I think he was just temp checking after his weird behavior the night before.
I just answered, Yes it was me. I'm at the farm so bad cell service.

I don't expect to hear from him for a while. I'm sure he is ashamed of letting himself be too transparent with his feelings. But that is just the craziest interaction we have had in months.

Still moving toward my Sept. 13 appointment with attorney. Still an interesting ride getting there. I will stay NC.

PS- It was more of a group outing than an actual "DATE", but he doesn't need to know that, right? Sure set him off. Plus, it was huge fun. Doing it again this next weekend! Cute guy too, so there's that.:)