Limerence and My Situation 2

[Parkema]

Hi All,

Well the time has come where my WW has taken my S10 & 8 away with her AP/LO for a week, Yesterday was particularly hard and my WW could see that this hurt a lot when it came to me saying goodbye and wishing them a good time with their mum.
I had a tear in my eye which my WW saw and she mouthed “sorry” to me I turned away from her as I didn’t want her to see this having an effect on me BUT deep down I couldn’t help myself. I am slowly coming to terms with these situations and remained calm and eventually happy when we were together, my boys are amazing and just take everything in their stride and are a good example for me in how I should be acting.

I realised though that Yesterday wasn’t about her leaving me for a week with her AP/LO this I had no problems with it was just that I feel completely replaced with him living in my house, sleeping in my bed and playing happy families with my WW and boys. So far I have not seen this individual and my WW is keeping to the boundary I put in place for HIS benefit.

I backslid a bit though as my WW mentioned that it was only for 4-nights and that I had them the previous week and she missed them the same! I basically took the boys away for 2 days (1-night) last week and she seems to think this was hard for her I wish she could have been in my shoes at that point to see just how hurtful this whole episode is going to be for me…
I feel I might have plied some guilt on her and the leaving was not what I wanted it to be this affected me more than I thought it would.
How could she take my boys away from me with him..? Part of the fantasy…?

Anyway I’m now going to GAL for my life this week to keep me occupied as I’ve NEVER been away from my boys at all throughout their lives for this amount of time, not sure it will affect them but sure will me.

Thanks.

Mark.