Is it temp checking if w stops bye and spends afternoon with family. Light conversation no mention of R. Eats with us then leaves for the night but mentions planning something for later in the week
It's called eating cake. That's when she wants the best of both worlds (her family and the OM or whatever). The WW wants the benefits that come with being M to you, but she doesn't want to take responsibility. Make sense?
I wrote out a post to you earlier but somehow managed to lose it. I was pleading with you to see a doctor. You must find balance in your life during this time of heavy stress. Eat a good healthy diet, sleep as much as possible, excerices, be around people who are friends and care about you. Talk to your doctor about your suicidal thoughts.
For the sake of your sanity, you need a distraction from your crazy WW. Do not watch her. Do not examine every move she makes. This is probably not going to end for a long time, yet. Most WW's have to learn a few lessons and experience consequences due to their behavior. My suggestion is to drop the emotionally rope you have tied to her, and move forward making a life without her. Not what you want to hear, but this is serious when a man is having suicidal thought. There is life out there and the world will not stop spinning b/c your W decides to leave you. Put your needs first.....otherwise, you could end up losing your health, sanity, and maybe your life. It's time to protect yourself by getting away and staying away from her. You deserve much better.
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
