Leaving it up to God (but still interfering!)

[AndrewP]

Coly - never for a moment think that you were an "awful wife". Certainly you weren't a perfect June Cleaver but none of us are perfect.

You are a warrior queen. You have fought so long and hard for something and someone you truly believed was worth it. Just because you may have "lost the fight", you've won yourself. You have such a great deal to be proud of and all of us here who are traveling along with you are proud of you too.

There's something that Jack_3_Beans told me once that I've adapted and held up as my shield against the bad times. I am indeed The One Best Choice for my former W. The fact that she's too dim to see that is irrelevant and not something I can fix. Perhaps I can loan this to you.

Don't worry about the blech. It will get better in time. I found for me that I would, like you cycle between highs and lows. I've found over time that they smooth out and even when I'm "triggered" that it's not as bad as it has been.

You are doing great and you are loved.