I am so glad you updated! I have been wondering where you were and how things are. I am so sorry to hear it's all kinda the same :-( It must be hard to carry on like that. There is another poster here T384 and she reminds me of you. She was here years ago and is now back, you might remember her. Her H also DB her (for a second time) during her pregnancy. So she now has an infant, young kids, and his WH/trainwreck to deal with. If you have time, read her threads, there are some great posters in there.
I know you are busy, but try to keep us posted from time to time. I am glad you are getting support and seeing a IC. Hope the little ones are well. You are a strong mama, and I know things will get better for you. As you tell others, you keep living a good and honest life, and good will come to you in return.
Blu
“Forgiveness liberates the soul. It removes fear. That is why it is such a powerful weapon.” – Nelson Mandela