Cherry. Getting on with a few bumps

[Cherry]

So it's been a little while since I last came on here. Apologies, but as you can imagine, my hands are so very full at the moment. With regards to the WH or soon to be ex, nothing much has changed. He goes through phases of which he will want to talk and be super friendly and perhaps suggestive/flirty, to stone silence the next. The D is seemingly still going through, I don't know- or care to be honest right now. I still stand firm by I don't want it, so I don't ask. Of course I frequently question, is a R with him what I want. And I don't really know, not him who he is now, but the man I loved who has been gone for years.

However, I try not to focus on that. I've been seeing an IC for a few months. I do find this is helpful, sometimes very hard emotionally, and sometimes difficult. I get given homework to do sometimes. And I've been trying to really take this serious and use it as my little bit of time for me to help build me back to that confident señora I once was. I know that I've a way to go yet, and days are sometimes a struggle with stress and sleep deprivation. I must admit, I do have some resentment towards WH for leaving me to parent alone, especially on the days with S is being particularly naughty and I've been up most the night with D.