Just remember that nothing you do or say is going to turn this thing around right now.
My inability to accept this ^^ is precisely what's holding me back.
I can't stress anymore how that is the reality of the situation. " You can avoid reality but you can't avoid the consequences of avoiding reality".
You have to let go of the past. The W you are holding onto is probably not coming back at least for many years down the road when she realizes what she has done.
You need to accept your new reality and see it for what it is, but not worse then it is. There have been many posters who have indicated 50% custody is not as bad as it sounds.
Focus on becoming the best Chris possible. "Success in the ultimate revenge".
I am also taking my kids to the beach this weekend and we are going to have a blast!