I think it's amazing T that you can observe the weird without mind reading and know that you have confused feelings about him...and STILL do what you need to do.

Courage isn't not having fear, it's doing it anyway.

I read somewhere else to remember YOU ARE WORTH PROTECTING.

It is a tough truth but, right now, your H is not doing anything I suspect that is about protecting you or his sons from the impact of his actions. That would be the behaviour of a decent adult, to say I want x and I know you wish I didn't, but I do and here is my plan for how I still get x without it damaging all of you more than it has to.


Me: 53 H:38
T:20 M:14
BD ILYB etc 10/15, H diagnosed severe depression
S 1/16
PA 4/16
H filed 1/17