we all have bruised egos, so it's okay to secretly hope he will regret these choices.
And if he does - maybe he'll let you know and maybe not.
But once you move forward and surround yourself with authentic people who "get" you, and appreciate and value you, you'll be glad you cut your losses, and glad you have 3 great boys. I wish you could stop letting fear paralyze you and the smallest of gestures on his part as something significant. (The laundry he did is not a recommitment to the marriage or him forsaking OWs).
You won't be alone and overwhelmed for long, and it's not a contest to see if your h "wins" b/c he's constantly got to be with a woman...
I normally would stress the hope to hold onto, but in your case I don't and it's not just based on your h's repeated behavior. It is that you let the hope stall you out, and you risk too much of your heart and financial future. All based on what you believe is his potential...
It makes me sad to hear your worries about embarrassing HIM, by serving him divorce papers at work instead of where? Your home??
Hinging all these fears of HIS reaction to you - what he will say/do/think, honestly,
if you could control any of that^^^ you would not be in this situation.
Let go of that ^^myth. You will get through this ordeal and you will shake your head at some of the fears and thoughts you are giving lots of room to now.
And you will be much happier.
(((( ))))
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
