Ultimately you are right. One thing that I have come to discover is that I was far too nice and respecting throughout this process. Back on BD I should have insisted she leave and refused to spend family time with her, etc. Maybe the way I acted was all out of fear. Perhaps by trying to be respectful I thought she would come back. I see this is all wrong now. I may never be the person that can do that. It may never be in my nature. On the other hand though, no one should ever be treated the way that I was - lied to, betrayed, disrespected, shut down, etc.
I am walking away from my marriage now and thinking about the possibilities for the rest of my life. My next relationship will be so much richer from what I now know and feel. I am enjoying the time and freedom that I now have.
Me46 W46 M25yrs T29yrs 4 children ILYBNILWY 1/30/17 PA confronted 3/6/17 Separated same house