So last night we had a mini R talk. Her initiation. I let her do most all the talking. I validate. I told her I felt her moving closer recently and she said that I was seeing things. That it was always there and that I just never saw it.
I'm not buying it. She has been more respectful and has acted differently. Obviously, I have been paying closer attention, but I know there has been a change.

Here is where I need a decoder. She said that lately, she had been just trying to get along. That for some time now, that she feels so alone when we are together. So so terribly alone. I validate and pointed out that when she spoke that I had made a point some time back to give her my full attention. Doesn't matter. I asked her to help me understand. She repeated herself and tuned out.

WTH is this supposed to mean? Is it something I am supposed to act on?

So anyway. I still made coffee this morning but didn't deliver it. Figured it was a good segway to get back on detaching.


M 53 W 54, M since 98
D15, D19
8/2013 discovered EA, W maintained contact with OM
until 10/14
7/2/17 W said she wanted S, 7/25/17 moved out of MBR
12/17 W says moving out 5/18, W still in home.